When I was trying to have a baby for so many years I found myself easily jealous of my sister's fertile status. I thought in my mind how she doesn't understand how much I want to be a mom, but what I didn't understand is how hard it is to be a mom. Rachel was always patient with me, she was unconditionally loving and never shared so much of her tough days because I was in my private world of pain.
Since having Blake I see how completely self absorbed I was. Not only was Rachel caring and supportive during my pregnancy, but she sacrificed (along with my friend Amy) to visit me and help me out when he was a baby. Now that is love. I am so grateful to have a friend and sister like Rachel. Until I became a mom I never realized how difficult it was to have someone needing you at all times. Now she has four little ones needing her and I admire her strength, her endurance, and her patience. Love you sister.
That made me cry. Love your transparency, Sarah. And I think it's so neat that you have such a precious relationship with your sister. This is such a great reminder that no one really has it easy. God is so gracious to give us the strength and ability to endure our own trials and situations as he puts them in our lives. When we start to compare our lives to others is when we begin to stumble and lose out on the grace God has given to us for what we are facing. By the way, I admire all those things in Rachel, but I see the exact same things in you as well as you've faced your own difficult circumstances.
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